Drained .

I am exactly what my title says. Drained. I am soo incredibly exhausted. I'm on 2 hours of sleep. That's my own fault though. I was up till like 5 am talking to an old friend. My oldest friend I should say. I've known her since I was 3 years old. And I remember every single memory I ever shared with her. Down to when she was in the hospital room with my mother and I when my brother was born almost 16 years ago. Crazy huh ? And so we hadn't talked in ages. Literally. And we ended up chatting it up for about 3 hours. We talked bout everything. Boys, family, and yup church. Her and I grew up in the same church. Mind you, her uncle, is the church's pastor and MY Godfather. We grew up there. She is of "Christian" faith. But we still got on subject as to how could most, if not all church go'ers be so judgmental of the outside "world"? They are the ones that should accept you for who you are, like Jesus has cause, correct me if I'm wrong, but your supposed to be following His example ... Right? yee of Christian faith? (This is in no way, shape or form towards anyone in particular... At ALL.) And she was just telling me how everyone at that church has changed so dramatically and they just wanna dominate everything and how they are all so fake, etc .. Not gonna get into that much being the subject that it is.

But anywho ! I'm in such need of medical attention. But I haven't been able to see a doctor yet. I have all the symptoms of anemia again. Lord knows I don't wanna become anemic all over again. Sleeping too much, then insomnia, feeling weak, lack of appetite, not to mention haven't had my period in 3 months? Oh I'm sorry, too much info? Deal with it. And I have every freaking symptom of freaking medical depression. Not something I want at all. I don't wanna be popping pills for every single little thing I have. Also worried bout diabetes, the cyst on my wrist that won't go away and why I keep losing so much weight. In a nut shell? I need blood work done -_- imma get all that checked out come the new year. I need to be more responsible for myself. I can't continue to be stressed and have these sleepless nights, etc. Not doing me justice.

Not to mention, I have boy drama. So I'm dating my boss's son. "OMG! Ash! How coul.. Why wouldd... That's not ..." Yeaaah, save it. I've heard it all. And its actually not as complicated as it may seem, as far as the situation goes. The boy on the other hand, is just ugh. He refuses to take the GED exam. And I'm noone to MAKE someone do something but, when I'm involved, it does have affect on me. He is "madly in love" with me, would do anything for me apparently, but won't do a stupid test? He pictures us spending "forever" together.. Well, I don't picture me together with someone without a future cause clearly you need a HS diploma or equivalent to get into college, etc. I refuse to have kids and be like " oh yeah, your father was a HS dropout simply and only because he doesn't like school (his actual reason) but you, you have to go to school cause I said so. Like wtf, what is the kid gonna think? I'm pretty sure you can't support a family as a overnight security guard for a job earning what, $12 buck an hour ? Get. Real. I told him all this ... Straight up. I was over his house last night. Arguing for hours. And of course, Jackie (his mom, my boss) kept coming upstairs all nosy knocking ... "Ashley, umm, do you want something to drink?" "NO. I'm fine thanks" .... 20 mins later "umm Ashley, want a sandwich?" "NOO JACKIE!" ... Yeah I was pretty annoyed. Then she started texting me and I told her to mind her own business. Yeaaah I felt bad after. Whatevs. Went downstairs, he went outside & started to cry? Like wtf. He says he's scared he is gonna "lose me" cause he doesn't wanna do the exam. Ha. No comment. Its not even over a freaking exam. Its deeper than that. Hopefully you see my point of view. "I don't like school. I don't like it" just doesn't cut it for me at ALL! And I feel bad for my boss cause she feels like such a failure of a mom. But she is an amazing mom. You can tell. She is amazing altogether. Despite it all. The kid needs a little work. Well, he's not even a kid. He's a grown ass man who'll be 22 years old next week! Whatevs. I'm dropping the subject.

Ughh. I tell you, life isn't easy, but making it through even though you feel weak, makes you stronger than you think you are. I'm lost. I'm in a phase where I don't know what I want. I don't know where I stand. Don't know what I have. But hey, in order to find yourself you have to lose yourself first, right ? Maybe you don't see it that way. It doesn't matter. Its how I see it and its what imma stand by.

On a happier note, my Xmas was pretty decent. Spent Xmas eve @ Jackies. Got quite a few gifts from there. Gave her her gift too. Secret Santa exchange at work was also a success. One of the associates had me. Got a shirt & some unknown fragrance :| ill take what I can get though. My parents gave me something. Shocking. I know. And I gave them something too. Bigger shocker? No, not so much. I always give. You should know me. Tomorrow is new year eve. I'm off from work. Whoop ! I don't have anything planned. I refuse to make plans with anyone anymore. Its always a fail and disappointment. So imma try and live day by day and if u catch me not busy, then we can hang. If not, your SOL. So who knows where ill be tomorrow night. With that said, I think I've blogged enough from my phone today. I hope your Xmas was great! And that you have fun welcoming the new year. Make the best of it. Start it off fresh. With a positive mind set. Its 2010 people ! See you on the other side !

Thanks for reading. Thanks for caring. I love you !

XOXO, Ashley

Myspace Bloggs ;)

These are posts i have written on my Myspace Blog BUT ... since not everyone has a myspace, i guess i'll share them over HURR lol.

"I Shoulda Known Better" (2009)

Verse 1:
Those words you used to say to me,
that soothed me like an ocean breeze,
have now become a distant memory,
too far back for my mind to see.
You fooled this young brown eyed girl,
telling her lies when she gave you her world.
When you say I love you it stabs my heart,
cause your the one who decided we should be apart...

Chorus 1:
I shoulda known better
Shoulda known the game you play,
I shoulda known better
Shoulda known you'd have your way,
I shoulda known better
Than to give my heart away... To you.

Verse 2:
I tried to make us what we'd never be,
I guess that's what really got to me.
I gave you the stars and the moon,
but I think I gave them to you a bit too soon.
I gave you my heart not once but twice,
and ended up paying the ultimate price.

Chorus 2:
I shoulda known better
Shoulda known this day would arise
I shoulda known better
Shoulda known your eyes hid lies
I shoulda known better
Than to breakdown and cry... For you

Bridge:
So much honesty, so much trust
Our love turned to ashes and ashes to dust
Why did you leave my heart all alone
Baby baby I shoulda known....

Chorus 1:
I shoulda known better
Shoulda known the game you play
I shoulda known better
Shoulda known you'd have your way
I shoulda known better
Than to give my heart away... To you.


"It's Too Late" (2009)

You’re hot and your cold
You’re yes then you’re no
You’re just like Katy Perry sings
How many times have I told you so?

We went through this once
Now we’re going through it again
I think this just about did it
This little game has got to end

All those sleepless nights I’ve suffered
Not knowing what to do
Were all because I couldn’t
Stop thinking about you

Wow, you’ve sunk that low?
“we shouldn’t talk anymore”
Is this the kind of guy
I’m shedding my tears for?

You’ve blocked my digits
You’re ignoring my texts
Now I fear what’s lurking
Around the corner next

Why am I giving my all
To one who clearly has moved on
That “first love” we once had
Has now disappeared, it’s gone

You were my first but now its sunk in
That you wont be my last
Damn I never thought
This could all happen so fast

Don’t you know your killing me slowly
I’m in the process of losing all I had
Nothing in this world could’ve prepared me
For this pain that hurts so bad

You let the others manipulate you
You’ve been blinded by their opinions
Here I was fighting for you
Thinking I’d be your one in a million

I can’t stay living in the past
I’ve got all my life to live
I know there is someone out there
Who deserves the love I give

At last no strings attached
Feel free to go out on your dates
Just remember what you let go of
Cause as of yesterday, its officially too late…


These next ones were written with miss "Miley Cyrus" in mind ... <3 "Who Am I?" (2009)

I'm far from what you think of me
Go ahead and tell me what you see
I’m not sorry I’m not who you want me to be
I’m tired of hearing “what kind of role model is she?”

Your head is filled with butterflies
I can’t believe you believe these lies
Like “yeah she’s been with so many guys”
But who am I kidding, that’s no surprise

“You’re gonna end up like Britney Spears!”
Gee thanks, but you really think i'm gonna run in tears?
Actually that’s the best compliment I’ve heard all year
Nothing can break me, sorry my dear.

“You’re a hoe, you’re a slut” yes i've heard it all
And I know half the world wants to see me fall
I’m sheltered by angels who come when I call
And there’s nothing you can do to break down that wall

In about 5 years I’ll be twenty one
Even then are you gonna bash me for having fun?
Or will this entire episode of my life be rerun?
Cause when I think it’s finally over I find out its just begun

As much as you’d like to start a war
I’m above your level that’s for sure
Your opinions I will simply ignore
Yeah go ahead hate on me some more

God, Friends, Family is all I need
To help me move forward and succeed
Into your negativity I will not feed
Cause I’m not a follower, baby I lead.



"Like A Virus" (2009)

I wish you could feel the way I feel
When you say those words to me,
How I wish that I could say them back
So you know just what I mean.
I don’t think anyone asked for your opinion
Sorry u don’t like the way I dress,
But the last time I checked
It’s not you I’m here to impress.
Sorry im no longer a pre-teen
On a television show,
& just cause I wear shorts
Don’t make me a hoe.
Why are you trying to bash and trash me?
You’re just mad I can rock it and you can’t,
Well sorry honey nobody
Wants to listen to you rant.
Just a little reminder
I’m 16 and grown,
And I can very much make
Choices on my own.
You’re hating cause my style
Is sick like a virus
For the rest of your life
You’re gonna remember M Cyrus!



"Don't Judge" (2009)

Just cause you see my face
Up on the tv
And you know my name
Don’t mean you know me

You seem a little concerned
Over my well being
About my friends & family
And who I’m seeing

I wish you’d recognize
My life is not your concern
I don’t know what else to do or say
Until you finally learn

Let me live my life
Let me do what I do
Let me go my own way
Without hearing a word from you

Before you judge me
Go check out a 4th grade classroom
I’ll bet you’ll find little girls in tight shorts
Growing up just a bit too soon

Oh and yes before you judge me
Go & grab your daughters phone
And see what kind of pictures she takes
When she’s home alone

Oh and one last thing
If you judge me, then I’ll judge you
And honey that is something
You would not want me to do"



"Through Her Eyes" (2009)

In the hidden part of a pop stars life
You’ll find tears that have yet to fall
You’ll find pain that has yet to hurt
Cause all you see is the side that shines
But who sees the dimmer side at all??

Whom I play is not who I am
Simply an added side of me,
Cause the hidden part of this pop stars life
Is something deeper than what you see.

The girl i stare at in the mirror
Makeup, hair and all,
Is the girl so many want to be
Yet I’m the one they want to see fall.

Brushing up against the wall,
Guitar in hand with no thoughts at all
Just playing the first thing that comes to mind.
busy days turn to lonely nights
Wishing i had more time to myself,
Just me and my guitar, no one else
Time to think back of how life used to be,
And realize, this life is now a part of me.

Picture here, pose there
Paparazzi don’t even care.
Calling me names I don’t deserve
I can’t believe they had the nerve.
I can’t fathom why people are so mean,
Is this the price to live my dream?

They say I’m too big, now im showing too much
Sometimes I feel like ive had enough
But with the push of the people I love the most
I know I can’t give up cause im so close
To fulfilling my purpose and dream
To bring hope is my destiny.


THANKS FOR READING !!! <3 <3

-Ash

Same Old, Same Old ...

K, so ... I was going through my litto "Hello Kitty" binder (don't judge), which is where i keep all my poems and songs and stuff and realized, i've been quite talented for a while .. haha ! Like, alot are from 2006 and 2007 when i was like, 16 & 17 ... Sometimes i look back at them and laugh ... sometimes i look back at them and say "Did i seriously write this?" . but when inspiration hits ... it hits ! So yeah, i guess i'll share some old stuff . I love hearing feedback from people when it comes to my writing . whether its good or bad ... i like to reflect on it. Doesn't mean imma change the way i write, cause the way i write IS me and i won't be changing ME for anyone ... but ... at lease i can get tips and ideas that i could prolly try and incorporate in my writing . So, be honest .. tell me what you think ....

"When I'm Gone" (2006)

When I'm gone will you cherish all the moments that we spent together,
Though it all i can't forget because memories last forever.
We tried to hold on through all these years,
But all of out disagreements brought us to tears.
From here on out we;re on our own,
What's next to come is still unknown.
Being that this is so hard to do,
I want you to know i still care for you.
In my mind will remain your face,
From my memory it will never erase.


"Excuses" (2007)

I hope you can't sleep at night,
Knowing that I'll never be alright.
Because of you I'm crying,
Because of you I'm dying.
I trusted you, I gave my all,
But now you stand there as i fall.
Why did you walk into my life,
And walk right out, that wasn't right ...

I don't wanna hear (nope)
I don't wanna hear, excuses.
They won't heal my heart (nope)
They won't heal my heart, they're useless.

I was so young, I was naive,
The things you said i would believe.
You said i made you happy,
You said you needed me.
I let you go but didn't see,
That once I did you weren't coming back to.

I don't wanna hear (nope)
I don't wanna hear, excuses.
They won't heal my heart (nope)
They won't heal my heart, they're useless.


"Hope. Faith. Love." (2008)

Through the worries, through the rain,
Through the struggles, and through the pain.
I've come to learn that life IS worth living.
Through the smiles, through the laughs,
Through the present, and through the past.
I've come to learn that life IS worth living.
A little bit of hope, a little bit of faith, a little bit of love,
Is all you need to make it through the day.
No need to question God above, just remember all you need
is Hope. Faith. and Love.
No matter the situation or how hard you may fall,
Just believe and you will see, you will get through it all.
[Love] the world like God loves you, have some [Faith] in all you do,
Just be [Hopeful] and your dreams will ALL come true!


"Victory" (2008)

In the midst of all the crying, in the midst of all the pain,
I'll guarantee a smile if you simply call his name.
No one can heal you faster, no one can bring the light,
The one that'll take the darkness so that you will be alright.
Declare it with me, I've got the victory,
Nothing in this world can take this joy away from me!

Nope, Its Never Too Late <3

Andddd another one! (PS, I write all these on my phone ;)

Your broken like a headlight right after a crash, you can't focus on the present cause your caught up in the past. Depression hits you worst when you have no faith at all, and on a stormy night just like rain, you fall.

On a road that leads you wrong or right you have to decided whether to color it black or white. The storm will pass and so will the days, that bring you down and make you feel this way.

There's sunshine after rain that make up the bow, we need pain to make and help us grow. Think of the good, and you'll get the great, don't you give up, its never too late.

Comment. Opinions. Accepted.

XOXO, Ash

Words Of Inspiration :)

If you know me, you know I looove to write. And anytime I'm inspired, I just write what's on my mind. I wrote this with a special friend in mind. Hope it touches others as well.... :)

It was promised there'd always be sun to light our way but who said it'd be sunny every single day? When the sun hides, the clouds get the best of us, we go crazy with just a tad bit of wind gust.

You have no control of when the rain falls, and its hard to hear the wind when it calls. Shelter your heart in the middle of a hurricane, even thought u might be afraid of going insane.

Though you may wanna settle for the valleys that are low, you need to take a risk cuz there's so much more left to know. Mountain tops, make that your goal, aim for the prize to soothe your soul.

Wish you may, wish you might, wish on a star to help you win this fight. One against all, but your in it to win, standing up for yourself isn't a sin.

At the end of every storm you will find your rainbow, you'll find pieces to the puzzle and finally be whole. Fallen angel, take a some time to walk the mile, by faith u should know you'll finally find your smile.

Comments. Opinions. Accepted.

XOXO - Ashley

When Inspiration Hits, It Hits.

I was going through my phone just now and I found these 2 little whatchamacallit poems/songs i had written a few weeks ago. They ain't all that great cause it doesn't even sound finished? but whatevs, here ya go! :)

[Take Me Back]

Your expectations used to be higher
and that's when i came along,
now that I'm gone you've settled for less
and stuck in a situation you don't belong.

you can't love her like you loved me
i can see it in your eyes,
your body language says it all
once i left love for you completely died.

Maybe i made a mistake in leaving
but i wanted to explore the world,
but I've come to realize that
you are the perfect match for this girl....
so please... leave her and take me back.

I know it's you calling me
at 3am every other day,
I answer then you hang up do you
need to hear my voice to make your night okay?

Your absence is the fire that
constantly burns my soul,
without your kiss for hydration
it burns right through and leaves a hole.

But maybe i made a mistake in leaving
but i wanted to explore the world,
but I've come to realize that
you are the perfect match for this girl....
so please... leave her and take me back.

*********************************************

[It's Pain]

It's hard to remember a time,
back when you were only mine.
Cause it's so far into the past,
time didn't let the memories last.

Although the skies are blue they seem Grey,
just like the day we went our separate ways.
The sun don't shine the same,
the rain falls and thunder screams my name.

I can't get away from the rain though,
when will i be able to see my rainbow?
Misery don't even want my company,
there's no definition to describe this pain in me.


A lil depressing? Ha. It has nothing to do with me though. Actually, nothing to do wiff anybody really. I just wrote them to write it :D

<33 Ashley

Words Of The Mind

I wrote this back in April. On my phone, while at work. I was feeling too may emotions at once. I had to let it out all then and there. And to be honest, i had never written like this before. The whole "non-rhyming" just letting it all flow as it goes type thing. And it has turned out to be one of my best to date! So please, give honest feedback, and let me know if you relate! I love to hear those stories!



"its hard to speak, when no one is willing to listen. your voice is left unheard and your mind is left full of thought. bottled up inside, with the urgent need for a bit of acknowledgment. is it hard to understand the innocent thoughts that a mind so young still seeks answers to? the flesh ages but the soul still lingers in those years where complex thoughts never streamed the mind and overpowered every emotion ever possible to exist?

is it possible that one is so oddly unique that others may find it hard to even stand their existence? to be able to feel ones emotions times those you are already feeling, to give you an overwhelming sense of supernatural ability. the thought of non-existing becomes more complex, knowing you only rid your body, not soul.

your passion becomes your fear, as others pull you down from the place you’ve set your heart in. how can one put more faith in those who have no faith in them, yet the faith in themselves has diminished? is it hard to fathom that one can play a part in any role that is not their own and fool any being into believing its original. The art of life smears onto the pages of a book still unwritten. The heart that beats as time goes on, becomes obsolete allowing mind to take over. Trust it, trust the heart and let it guide you to your destiny."

YAY! Ok ttyl. Thanks for reading, thanks for caring.

<3 Ash

My Angel On Earth <3

OMG OMG OMG! Sooooo, TODAY is one of my BESTEST friends birthday! She is ... uhhmm ... eternally 12 today but somehow born in 1977 LOL ! SO, anywho, first and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIELLE !!! I love you SOOO SOOO much and i know i haven't shown it lately and we've kinda been not talking as much the past 2 weeks but i will forever love you no matter what! This day reminds me of when i sent you that package for your birthday THREE years ago =O seems like it was yesturday!

I just found the poem i wrote for her 3 years ago as well (gahh i was 16yrs old LOL) for her birthday and it goes:

On a late September morn,
A precious little child was born.
Brought love and joy into this world,
So much love for that little girl.
She flourished into who she’ll become,
The Lord made her a special one.
The pain and hard times she made it through,
Trusted in God when she didn’t know what to do.
Smiling through a million tears,
Learned to get rid of all her fears.
One sweet day she was filled with joy,
When the Lord gave her a precious baby boy.
She found peace in the words of a soul,
Which comforted her and made her whole.
In my heart specials ones a very few,
My love for her will always be true.
Till this day she is still so blessed
To have family and friends who wish her the best.
Enjoy this day of happiness and fun,
Happy Birthday my Angel there’s many more to come.

OMG that made me tear up! I've know this girl for only a little bit over 3 years now but it seems like FOREVER! She has been through EVERYTHING with me, and believe it or not, we've only met in person ONCE! Let me tell you out story:

We met each other through Myspace.com due to the fact that we both loved (and still very much do) Mariah Carey. We talked online for a bit, then thru phone until we were talking for HOURS on end... YES we even talked for 10 hours straight one night. The first time we met in PERSON was in June of 08. Through everything she had going on, she made the sweet sacrifice to fly out here from Missouri just to come to my high school graduation. A special day indeed. We spent that whole week together! We went to the beach and tried to make the best of it! It was AMAY-ZING! Haven't seen her in person since then but we still talk NON stop and that gurl knows like everything about me! everything! and she is 13 years OLDER than me (sorry hun LOL) but she is a kid at heart! (an adult when she has to be, c'mon she has a son! hehe)

She understands me. answers her phone @ 4am if i NEED someone to talk to (no one else does that for me) I can call her crying and she knows just what to say. She can make me laugh like NO OTHER! We have 984783924712 trillion inside jokes, we can act absolutely dumb and still understand each other (that's normal for us lol). Only God only knows why he allowed us to meet when we did and i will never ever question that. No it has not ALWAYS been rainbows and gummydrops, we HAVE had our differences and our arguments BUT WHY dwell on that or even bring it up? It's in the past! Danielle is ONE my BEST friends, no doubt. For those of you who have BEST friends, you know how AMAY-ZING it feels to have one. No matter how you've met, how you communicate, it's all about the love in your heart for each other!

I was supposed to be with her in St. Louis right now celebrating her bday but things didn't work out according to plan =[ BUT i will be there sooner or later! hopefully sooner! I miss her SOOOO much! She don't even know and i surely hope this day is going fabulous for her! I wish her nothing but the best, best, BEST! I LOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEE you!! With ALLL my heart! Stay strong! Remember, Jesus LOVES you too ;] Once again, HAPPY BIRFFDAY Danielle! <33

-Love Always, Ashleyy .

Love Song...

Just writing this right before i call it a day and get some sleep ! I had MAJOR writers block earlier, but i was able to finish what i promised my frand Nickerz I'd write ! We've been sharing songs lately and it's simply been an inspiration! So this is about nobody in particular, just came off the top of my head, but then it DID remind me of someone. No names tho =]

I REALLY hope you like it !! 2 ppl already do! Nickerz included! I didn't really think of a title tho =/

You told me in your sleep
“you’re the one I want for me”
But when you’re awake
I know there’s another that you see.

I wanted to be your one and only
Was that too much to ask?
You promised from the start
You’d make our relationship last.

You’ve made my heart too fragile
I don’t trust it in near you anymore
Cause when I did you simply
Left if for dead on the floor.

I wish you would tell me
What I fear the most to hear
Say it till it’s sunk in
Until I cry my last tear.

You first kissed me in the summer
At the park in the rain
Now our last kiss was in the fall
Still feel the tingle in my veins.

Baby I’ll still miss you
Even though you did me wrong
I couldn’t finish the words I had
Written for our love song…

*MUAH* i absolutely LOVE writing ! <3

Love always, Ashh !

Words Spoken From My Heart...

So as most of y'all know, I'm a writer.. have been writing songs/poems for as long as i could remember.. I'm not in the mood to write much cause I'm incredibly sad right now, but I'll just post some things Ive written. 100% original. All by me. From my heart... some Ive written in like 10 mins, others in a day or two. it all depends on my mood and inspiration for it. Ill tell you a lil bit bout each one as i go =]

PS. I start crying and all of a sudden it starts pouring outside... what are the chances!

So here are a few.. just for now...

“A.B.O.R.T.I.O.N”

You can’t make a mistake
And make others pay the price,
That’s why when you’re out having fun
Make sure you think things twice.
How would you be able to let someone
Go and cut your baby apart?
Do you think that someone like that
Has a loving and caring heart?
Didn’t think so.
So why are you on that hospital bed?
You know there’s a million thoughts
Running through your head.
Should you proceed or should you stop?
Do you think what you are doing is right?
If you go through with it
Tell me how will you be able to sleep at night?
Mistakes happen
Some actions come with consequences
You should have known by now
Because if you can acknowledge what you did
Then there is no need to ask me how.
Killing a child losing a soul
That God put inside of you
Makes one less in this world
That could have started something new.
A life with a purpose
Thrown into the depths of the ocean
All because you decided to give up
And have an abortion.

-wrote this for my creative writing class bout 2 years ago.. like outta no where.. but it's a subject i am strongly against so it inspired me to write about it =]

“Dear Mr. President”

Dear Mr. President
How are you today?
Are you aware that in your hands
People are dying everyday.
Dear Mr. President
How’s your family?
Why are they not out there fighting
With the U.S. Army?
Dear Mr. President
Did you enjoy your meal?
People are starving
Guess you don’t know how that feels.
Dear Mr. President
What is on your mind
When you wake up?
I bet that homeless guy is thinking
Please don’t steal my cup.
Dear Mr. President
What was your strategy?
To brain wash Americans into
Thinking they soon will be free?
Dear Mr. President
Oh how I’m glad
you’ll soon be gone
Someone will take your place
Thank God what took so long?
Dear Mr. President
Unlike me I hope
You have a very good day
I think I’ve spoke my mind
And said all I wanted to say.

- i've never really liked Former President Bush.. i don't know why. I found him as kinda a joke? idk. everyone is entitled to their opinion...

"MLK"

Back in the day
The world was duplicated,
a school for white, a school for blacks
It made life so complicated.
No two colors were allowed to mix
The world was divided by two races,
Segregation and prejudice
Against the same familiar faces.
Then a wise man came
And told the world his dream,
Of how he knew everything would change
Some agreed, others didn’t believe.
After his long and meaningful speech
This man was shot to death,
What he didn’t know was that the world was going to change
After his very last breath.
Since that day
The world hasn’t been the same,
Blacks and whites are now together
And are all recognized under one name.
Americans, Americans
Is what we all are,
And little did we know
That his big dream would come this far.
Now today we recognize his achievement
And he remains in our heats,
Cuz Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. brought together
What was once forced apart.

- I wrote this when i was like 15? in english class.. for a contest that i never got the chance to enter...

“I Still Believe”

When it was dark
And I couldn’t find the light of day,
You would always shine your
Brightest light my way.
Late at night when I’d cry
I somehow knew you were by my side,
And when I felt your presence in the room
I knew everything would be alright.
It may have been hard for me to see
All the blessings that you have given me
When I was lost and hidden in the dark
I found your light and you found my heart
After all of this I know
I still believe.

- written at around 14 yrs old? i think.. i was going through A LOT and this kinda eased my heart and soul a bit =]

OKAY, that's enough for now =] I have SOOOO much more but in the meanie time, i'm gonna go and think about life ... *sigh* Hope you enjoyed them !!!

P.S- I MISS MY Y5 GIRLS!! <3

<3 always, Ashh