FML.

Sooo, today didn't turn out the way i thought it would. *sigh* I was fired from my job. Yes, fired. The job i had for 1 year and 5 months. Oh wait, how ironic that i started on November 15th and got fired on April 15th? Hmmm.

I'm an emotional mess. Ive been crying non stop. But actually i haven't been crying because of the fact that i got fired. Just the fact that i feel betrayed. You think you know someone and then you get stabbed with a knife sharper than cheddar cheese :P

I wanted to leave that place. Just not today. Not without having another job. And wanna know the best part? I get home only to get yelled at by my mother telling me that i have to pay $400 in rent next month no matter what! Isn't that great? SO the only person i have to turn to is my girl Danielle who thank God has ALWAYS been there for me no matter what. What would i do w/o my dork?

SO i wanna apply for unemployment but i just don't know how. I don't know what to do with my life at this point. I feel like i have nothing to look forward to. Like my dork says, "Jesus, whenever your ready!!". Thankfully i only have a tiny bit of money left that i can work with. Or maybe not since everything i have is what my effin mother is claiming i have to pay. We'll see about that one.

Soo yeah i don't have anything else to say other than i'm sad but i'll get over it soon enough. I'll be posting more blogs. Hey, this is a relief. i like writing :)

A Little Better

I woke up a little early today considering i have to work later. I usually don't wake up till an hour before i actually have to work. Yup, im lazy like that ;] I don't know exactly how i feel right now but i do know i feel just a little bit better. Now, i don't know how i'll feel when i walk through the doors at work. That's a whole other story.

I'm excited cause one week from today ill be on a plane to Buffalo. I'm still a little nervous about flying alone but hey, i know Jesus will be holding me tight so i'll be safe =] i'll also have my ipod and laptop along for the ride, for entertainment purposes lol.

*sigh* the other day i was writing yet again some more random stuff on my phone just to kill time and this is what i came up with...

"underneath the wings of an angel lies a child too frightened to speak. chained to a troubled past and a heart so hurt its weak. she whispers almost silently please don't leave my side. keep me under your wings just take me for the ride."

It's not quite finished but it's a start. These random words just pop out in my head and i have to let them out in any way possible weather it be on paper, thru texts, on my computer. I wrote another poem too earlier this week. I think i actually impressed myself lol. It's all good. I need to start developing my talent more and start putting it to good use. I'm just too lazy! like i said lol.

I guess i should start getting ready for work since i take forever and a day and usually end up late. blah. i have to cut that habit. so anyhow, i'll be back for more blogging laterrrr =]

thanks for reading && thanks for caring <33