Party In The Club

Soo Britt and i went clubbing last night. It was fun, at first. We were dancing with random guys lol. Britt was "drunk" but she says she wasn't. The alcohol had no effect on me at all whatsoever lol. We went downtown to a place called "Pure". They played wack music. It sucked. We got there at like 1:30am. Left at around 3:30am. Went to Jim's Steakhouse & saw Joshua. Boy has he changed! OMG! Then got home @ around 4:30am, got into PJ's and we both knocked the fcuk out! Woke up at like 10ish cause Britt had to go to school so i went with her. Came back to her house, knocked out for like 2 hours lol.

I went to my old church and saw my friend Janice. She hasn't changed. Saw her parents and brother. Then i went where Britt was cause she went to meet with her friend Seth. SO anyhow, now we tryna get ready to go to the town ballroom in downtown for the "Blackout" party. Meagan is here. Jamie is picking us up! I miss her! Haven't seen her in years! OMG i love this im having a blast seeing everyone after sooo long! I hope we have fun tonight. This is exciting and i'm taking pictures of every moment so check my facebook ;)

There are soo many things i wanna do and soo many people i wanna see but soo little time. Sometimes i wish i lived down here still. All my peoples are here. & then some haters. But anyhow,m i needa start getting ready! What do i wear? IDK!

I'll keep ya posted! ;) Good night! <3

For The Nostalgia

So i am finally in Buffalo. I had a great flight. No problems. A lil turbulence when landing in Buffalo. Actually, a lot of it. Got me dizzy for a bit. But above all it was good. Aside from sitting next to two old smelly guys on the second flight, and a fat snoring one on the first. OH! And it was freezing! I came in sandals. Big mistake lol. I was shivering. It was a blinding cold i had not felt in a loooong time.

When i got here the girl that was nice enough to give me a ride was waiting right at the gate for me. Baggage was delayed. Finally arrived @ Brittney's house. When i saw her i ran up to her and hugged her soooo tight! Like i lifted her up from the floor... twice. Yes there was screaming lol. A happy scream :)

It seems surreal that im actually here because honestly, it seems as if i never left and Ive been here forever. A lot of the places look a little bit different but Ive only seen a bit of the city. I still have to explore more of my once loved city. I can't wait to see people i had not seen in so long. I'm super excited. I just wish i had a car :(

Tomorrow should arrive my eye glasses that i am not too happy about but i was kinda rushed and stuff. So whatever. At least i have new ones and contacts :) Today has been a long day and i cant believe it's not even over yet! Whoa. I'm pumped. Tomorrow we are going Clubbing! YAY! Ok so anyhow, this is my vacation and i am going to enjoy it to the fullest. It has been well earned. I'll blog later this week!

"Forget About Yesterday, Don't Worry About Tomorrow, Just Live Your Life Today"

Da Double Dee Double Di

Today has got to be the day where i have a zillion things to do & so i wake up, and here i am laying in bed writing this! This laziness and procrastination is so hard to shake off. It runs through my blood lol. In exactly 24 hours I'll be on a plane to Buffalo and i have not packed a single thing. Don't have clean clothes, haven't even found the suitcase. oy.

I still need to go to the eye doctor to put in my prescription. that should be taken care of today. I wanna do my hair cause it's nappy. Straight is always easier. WOW i'm watching the weather channel and they just said "Or you can Twitter us to give us your ideas..." LMAOO. Everyone has Twitter. How disconcerting. So anyhow, I told my mom we were leaving in 7 mins and she's getting ready... i'm still in bed O_o

I'm actually feeling good about myself today. I feel like today might be good day. I think i better go get ready. I'll blog a little bit laterrrr. ;)

Philippians 4:13

What a day. Its funny how God works. Last night, i was on Facebook (shocking right? lol) and i saw a girl named Ana online. Now, I talk to her every once in a while. She goes to my church. Her & her twin sister sing with the worship team. So anyhow, i decided to say hi cause i hadn't seen her in a while. She has always been super nice to me. And you know, she asked me how I've been and i said "Well, I've been kinda depressed and angry cause i just lost my job and I've been stressed." so all she said was "Would you like me to pray with you?" and i said SURE!

She called me and almost immediately began praying. I felt so relieved. That was really nice of her to do that. Mind you it was midnight! So anyhow, my plan for today was to go to the MDC Kendall Campus to turn in some paperwork's that i still needed for my class next semester. So i asked my mom to come with me cause i didn't wanna go alone. As i was getting ready, i got a call from a place i had sent my resume to at Dadeland Mall through Monster.com a couple days ago. The woman i spoke to was asking if i could come for an interview and i said sure but i was going out of state in a few days. She asked me if i could make it TODAY! It worked out perfectly cause MDC is like 5 mins away from the mall!

I was super nervous cause for one, i hate interviews. I get soo nervous but my mom said PRAY! So i did and i felt much better. I also know my dorknob prayed for me too ;) I got all fancied up cause that is a very classy mall. I arrived and my mom prayed for it to all go well. I felt great when i walked in that door. The interview went great! I was offered full time and key holder! I feel good about this job and i PRAYYYYY they call me back. They said they need people very quickly so my chances are pretty good. Its pretty far. About a 25-30 min drive but well worth it. Im soo excited. Then I went to The Cheesecake Factory with my mom since she had never been. That was great. Then I finally got to MDC and while im there, i get a phone call...

I was told that my manager from my previous job just got laid off. I was like O_o Whattt!?! & how'd that happen!? Anyhow, I was stuck in traffic for like an hour. That gets me very impatient. Got home just in time before it started thundering and pouring rain.

Im like ecstatic because it amazes me how God works! You may not understand it when it happens, but later on it'll be revealed to you and it'll all start making sense. That job is mine. I declare it. I put it in God's hands though. He is in control now. I leave in 2 days to Buffalo and as excited as i may be, im still a lil nervous bout the flight but i know everything will be okay. I just know it.

I've learned my lesson. Now it's time to take stand and take charge and do things the right way. I'm ready, so bring it on! ;)



"There's always going to be another mountain, I'm always going to want to make it move. Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side... It's The Climb" -Miley Cyrus

Joel Osteen.

I was listening to a cd by Joel Osteen and man did i get a good laugh. He was talking about how we should take care of our physical body by eating right. I really liked that whole preach.

So anyhow, he read this poem to the audience that i just thought was wayyy funnier than it shoulda been. It said:

God, Grant me the strength,
Not to fall,
Into the clutches,
Of cholesterol.

At polyunsaturates,
I'll never mutter,
For the road to hell,
Is paved with butter.

And cake is cursed,
And cream is awful,
And Satan is hiding,
In every waffle.

Beelzebub is a chocolate drop,
In Lucifer is a lollipop.
Teach me the evils of fried chicken from the South..
Lord, if you love me, shut my mouth

LOL! Isn't that funny? Yes, yes it is :D

So watch what cha eat folks. I know i will ;)

FML.

Sooo, today didn't turn out the way i thought it would. *sigh* I was fired from my job. Yes, fired. The job i had for 1 year and 5 months. Oh wait, how ironic that i started on November 15th and got fired on April 15th? Hmmm.

I'm an emotional mess. Ive been crying non stop. But actually i haven't been crying because of the fact that i got fired. Just the fact that i feel betrayed. You think you know someone and then you get stabbed with a knife sharper than cheddar cheese :P

I wanted to leave that place. Just not today. Not without having another job. And wanna know the best part? I get home only to get yelled at by my mother telling me that i have to pay $400 in rent next month no matter what! Isn't that great? SO the only person i have to turn to is my girl Danielle who thank God has ALWAYS been there for me no matter what. What would i do w/o my dork?

SO i wanna apply for unemployment but i just don't know how. I don't know what to do with my life at this point. I feel like i have nothing to look forward to. Like my dork says, "Jesus, whenever your ready!!". Thankfully i only have a tiny bit of money left that i can work with. Or maybe not since everything i have is what my effin mother is claiming i have to pay. We'll see about that one.

Soo yeah i don't have anything else to say other than i'm sad but i'll get over it soon enough. I'll be posting more blogs. Hey, this is a relief. i like writing :)

A Little Better

I woke up a little early today considering i have to work later. I usually don't wake up till an hour before i actually have to work. Yup, im lazy like that ;] I don't know exactly how i feel right now but i do know i feel just a little bit better. Now, i don't know how i'll feel when i walk through the doors at work. That's a whole other story.

I'm excited cause one week from today ill be on a plane to Buffalo. I'm still a little nervous about flying alone but hey, i know Jesus will be holding me tight so i'll be safe =] i'll also have my ipod and laptop along for the ride, for entertainment purposes lol.

*sigh* the other day i was writing yet again some more random stuff on my phone just to kill time and this is what i came up with...

"underneath the wings of an angel lies a child too frightened to speak. chained to a troubled past and a heart so hurt its weak. she whispers almost silently please don't leave my side. keep me under your wings just take me for the ride."

It's not quite finished but it's a start. These random words just pop out in my head and i have to let them out in any way possible weather it be on paper, thru texts, on my computer. I wrote another poem too earlier this week. I think i actually impressed myself lol. It's all good. I need to start developing my talent more and start putting it to good use. I'm just too lazy! like i said lol.

I guess i should start getting ready for work since i take forever and a day and usually end up late. blah. i have to cut that habit. so anyhow, i'll be back for more blogging laterrrr =]

thanks for reading && thanks for caring <33

What Else Is New ?

SO, i get up, get ready for work, get to work a little late, as usual. had to like, wait a while cause these peeps had left to take care of thier bidness. They arrive, only to get in trouble once again b/c im wearing sandals :(

So im told to do ish and i do it. but then i started feeling so overwhelmed. i started getting negative vibes from ALL over that damn place and i ended up feeling sad and just overall very emotional. it was weird. not super weird b/c that's how i feel every time im there but just weirder? Then i have my lovely assistant manager talking about how im this and that and blah blah blah. and yes, i was holding back the tears as always. it got to the point where i just had to get the hell outta there. i asked my manager if i could leave cause i didn't feel well. i DIDN'T feel well, emotionally. i had to get outta there no matter what. and so i did. i lost 8 hours of work but i don't care. im tired of being ridiculed and taken as one big joke. nobody takes me seriously. like what do i have to do to be taken seriously?

so imma shut up about work now cause its the last thing i wanna think about now. i went to get an eye exam today. YAY! it was very spontaneous. $130 bucks but hey, i was looooong over due. i'm going to get some cute squared black frames. as well as the contacts of course. i have some trial contacts now which i will be using for about 2 weeks maybe? idk. i feel weird w/o my glasses though. i havent worn contacts in like 3 years soooo yeahh. that explains it.

i need to start asking myself some serious questions. i need some alone time with God and seriously start seeking him again like i was before. i cant do this on my own and he knows that. i told him already. im going to try and stay focused but it really is hard. *sigh*

i have some people that actually care though and im thankful for them. ;) they know who they are.


this is a picture i took today w/ my contacts on ;)

The song that won't leave my mind and i listen to 24/7 is "The Climb" By Miley Cyrus. I listen in it every single day, no joke and when i do, all i do is cry, cry, cry. Its such an emotional song and it just reminds me of my situation and how i feel. So thank you Miley for writing such an amazing song. Also congrats for her movie being number 1! i saw it, loved it. yay!

Thats enough for now. Just remember... Life's A Climb.